Hello Blog, it has been 4 weeks and my life has been thrown completely upside down. I was hospitalized around 3 weeks ago, and once I got out, I've been spending the last two weeks piecing together what I want to do with my life. Being hospitalized really put things into perspective for me, and finally being able to talk to my parents also opened up new avenues for me. I no longer am compelled to finish school at the moment, in fact I need a break from academia. Either a gap year or this summer off, but depending on whether I get a job or not I may just have to move back to LA and figure out my life there. I really would like to stay in San Diego for another year, but we will see. I'd love to pursue my dreams of being a tattoo artist, but in order for me to do that, I need a job to fund myself. I also need to get one so I can refund those poor clients of mine. I ought to let them know that I will refund them all as soon as possible, and of my conditions in becoming hospitalized once again. Biggest mistake I will ever make, I'm afraid to admit. I don't think I should open commissions for a while until I get my shit together. That's a bit mean, but I just need to collect myself and really get my life in order.
Enough about that for now, I've learned that I do enjoy a sex on the beach, it's quite yummy. I've been getting closer and hanging out with my friend Venus a lot. We are for real sisters from another mister. Same with Jirachi too. My nibling from another...uhhh? Haha. Anyways, I've made this banana matcha pudding that is to die for. The recipe is on tiktok somewhere, alas I'm too lazy to link it. Feel free to send me asks to my tumblr blog @spaceboners. I can probably find it and link it there in my answer. Hmm, my cooking and beverage endeavors this month and from last month have been quite adventurous. I'm planning to make a coconut cream tomato tilapia soup soon. I pray it's tasty. I've been making and drinking plenty of thai tea as well. Yum! Much to sip and chew on.
I'd love to vlog more to be honest. It's nice to have videos of your friends and you, especially like a time capsule to capture little moments. I think that's why I like tiktok so much, I can post my outfit videos and it becomes an archive (with fun music) of my fashion style. However, I want to do more youtube videos. Long form content is always super important to me. I want to develop the film in my disposable cameras, as well as either getting a new digicam or getting mine fixed. I'd love to do fun photoshoot stuff with Jirachi. He has such an eye for film and camera work, it's so awesome.
Video games galore this month, especially in the RPG department. I've played lots of Palia and one session of Dokapon Kingdom. As well as do a sidequest in DND with my DM and some friends. I love to roleplay, what can I say? I'm trying to get back into more text roleplays, I've roped many a friend into it to be honest. I'd love to practice my writing and character development more. I also wish I could roleplay more of my DND character with my friends in the same campaign, but none of them know how to RP, at least in text. Oh well, I'll just stick to writing my ideas as little vignettes. I know at least my DM enjoys my writing, ehehe.
I'd like to close out this blog post with something nice. I think while there's pain and badness that happens, it is ultimately the moments where joy and goodness triumphs that I live for. There will never not be a time in my life where something goes wrong. But when things go right, I want to be there for it and not focus on when the next time things go poorly. I want to know the sweetness of a friend's laugh, the rawness of living when I'm out of breath, the gentle care my loved ones reserve specially for me. I want to live to experience it all. I'm glad I'm over this hurdle, and I'll welcome to next one. Until the next post! See you soon, reader!